Today is my baby girl's 4th birthday and I'm incredibly sentimental.
Four years ago tonight - at exactly 8:10pm - our first baby was born via c-section. Not exactly the delivery I had planned, but in the end she was safe and in my arms. From that moment on, I was hooked. I was mom and I couldn't believe it. Everyone says that motherhood changes you, but I never imagined I would change as much as I did when I had my daughter.
Danjela and I have a special bond. You see, when she was only 6 weeks old, her daddy had to leave. He was transferred to a new unit in Colorado -- which meant that we would be moving too. We couldn't go with him right away because we just had no place to live and I had to pack up everything in our house in Virginia. Here I was -- a new mom, totally on my own with a new baby. It wasn't easy. I did a lot of things wrong, but I think I did a lot of things right too. I loved knowing that I was the only one taking care of her -- I was the one to calm her crying, to feed her, to bathe her, to make her smile, to hold her while I rocked her to sleep. For that short while we lived in a cocoon. She was mine -- all mine. I didn't have to share her with anyone.
When she was 4 months old, we reunited with her daddy and moved cross country to Colorado. Just a short time after, her daddy deployed to Iraq -- and once again we were on our own. I made sure that she knew who her daddy was -- pictures, videos, webcams. But deep down I knew that she was still all mine.
Today she is 4 years old. I sat down and remembered every single moment of the day of her birth. As I hugged her goodnight, I still remember how small she was when the nurses put her in my arms. As she said "goodnight mommy", I still remember her first word (Dada) and the first time she said mama. As she gave me a last smile, I remember the long nights of rocking her while she was teething...her little gums so red and raw.
Little does she know that she saved me. You see, she wasn't planned. She was conceived by accident while I was still on the pill. Even though WE did not plan her....to this day, I believe that GOD planned her. He knew that during my relocation and my husband's deployment that I would need something to keep me going. Something to give me a reason to get out of bed in the morning. She was and is my true angel from heaven.
Happy birthday baby girl. Mommy loves you more than you'll ever know.
8 comments:
How sweet. I hope that her birthday is wonderful.
Happy birthday Danjela!
Reading this brought tears to my eyes. Our baby girls both turned 4 this year...they are growing up. It's not fair...LOL!
You have two beautiful girls, and you are a WONDERFUL mom. Never forget that!
Aww...Happy Birthday Danjela!! Isn't it fun having a 4 year old?? :) What a beautiful posting for her birthday. Best Wishes, Kimber & Carlie :)
What a touching and wonderful post for Danjela on her birthday. I hope she had a wonderful 4th birthday. It is clear her day (and all her days) are filled with a tremendous amount of love and adoration from you. :)
Mandi (Mom's Rock Group)
Happy Birthday Danjela!
Happy Birthday Danjela!!! I remember when she was just a baby. Has it been that long since we have been friends? Love your site!!!
Welcome to the blogging world, Jen! I've had a blog for three (!!) years now and it's really turning out to be such a great baby book for my boys. In fact One of my current posts is a Happy 5th Birthday for Liam. Your place looks great and I'm looking forward to seeing how you grow this blog.
Happy Birthday, Danjela! You and Mommy have had a lot of adventures, and now you have a baby sister to share the adventures! You have a wonderful Mommy and Daddy (Of course you knew that when you picked them!) and I look forward to reading about your adventures here :)
Liesl from Happy Homemakers---
www.menageriehouse.com
happy birthday danjela..she is so great!
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